RESOLVED.

1. Drop an inch and a half in my hips, and half an inch in my waist, by the end of the spring term, not by starving myself, but by controlling my diet and exercising every day (or at least every day possible).

2. Take more pictures.

3. Actually READ the NY Times online once in a while. Having it set as my homepage and skipping over it every day doesn't do a hell of a lot of good.

4. Develop a personal style. [I started doing this a bit in the fall...I'm thinking a whole "Carrie Bradshaw meets Bollywood" look, but I'm not exactly there yet. I want to flesh it out more this term.] Going along with this: Figure out how to control my hair (and find easier ways of straightening it when I want to) and learn how to apply dramatic eye makeup so that I don't look like a clown.

5. Make this year a LOT better academically than the last one was. [Which shouldn't be too hard, considering I REALLY want to take all the courses I'm registered for during the spring semester :)]

And a couple of overarching themes:
-- Be persistent in getting what I want. Giving up so easily won't get me anywhere.
-- Be open to new experiences and don't say no to trying things at least once (I've always tried to do this but I think I've lost sight of it lately).
--And finally...don't refuse any opportunity to turn life into something out of a Bollywood movie. ;)

I revised my goal list from this spring. Eliminated some, crossed some off, added some, changed some to reflect my personality at this moment. (If you're interested in the originals, go to the entry from May 9, 2004.)

~attend a film festival
~spend an entire day lingerie shopping
~do the dressing room thing (if you want to know...and you probably don't, trust me...ask)
~learn to tango
~learn how to tie a sari properly
~own a red crepe sari (they're so pretty...)
~become closer to my parents (this summer worked wonders!)
~make a feature
~learn to play poker
~own a dog
~don't worry so much
~get over my asshole ex-boyfriend recent events have made this MUCH easier.
~have two guys fight over me (stupid, I know, but it's my silly ego-boosting one)
~make a lasting impression in the (Indian) film industry
~see the Magnetic Fields live ...and I want to go again when they come to Carnegie Hall in Nov., but I can't find anyone who'll go with me :(
~fall asleep in my boyfriend's arms in front of a fire
~be able to bargain and successfully lower prices :)
~find a flattering bikini
~give blood (I couldn't previously because of medicine that drastically lowered my blood pressure as a side effect...now that I'm off that medication I would really like to)
~see The Princess Bride (because EVERYONE talks about it and I don't get all the jokes)
~be in a movie...even as an extra
~go to an exclusive party and/or afterparty
~attend an awards show
~smile more, especially around people I don't know
~go to Stratford, ON (my childhood Shakespeare festival vacation stop) with a bunch of friends
~be at peace with who I am not to say I'm completely OK with myself now, but I've come a LONG way from where I used to be.
~sew the buttons back on to my coat(s) (haha yes, they're still buttonless)
~take a year off school or work to travel the world
~spend a considerable about of time in India, preferably working a movie shoot (I desperately want to do this during the summer, but it's so unlikely...)
~become more gutsy when it comes to men
~shop with my mother in New York City (the fact that I still haven't done this is atrocious)
~intern at Yash Raj Films, Dharma Productions or Madras Talkies
~see every single one of Hitchcock's movies
~receive roses from a boy
~cook a full Indian meal BY MYSELF -- with no assistance from anyone (this isn't going to happen until I marry. Anytime I cook Indian food now, someone HAS to help me. I'm not a submissive housewife just yet.)
~fly first-class somewhere
~visit a real rainforest (the one in Seattle doesn't count)
~be as hot as the woman who played the mom in Goodbye Lenin! when I'm older (talk about long-term, right?)
~become fluent in Hindi and be able to hold an everyday conversation in Tamil
~meet one of the living Beatles
~spend some time working with children (au pair, tutor, children's television, etc.)
~use film to make people happy

I'm curious as to what other people's goals are -- I developed mine thanks to my lovely former roommate jessiika. So share yours! The stupid ones, the thought-provoking ones, whatever. I'm really interested in what people want to accomplish over the long term.

511 Dodge has to be the only room on campus STILL running the air conditioner, even when it's 53 degrees outside. I'm still trying to get my body temperature back up from class this morning.

I've been listening to "D'yer Mak'er" by Led Zeppelin all night and feeling extremely wistful about a variety of things. So I decided to write down the goals that have been stuck to my door all year, just to have a record of some sort. Sadly, most of them were NOT completed this year, but that's what the rest of my life is for, right? So. In the next few years (or more, depending on the goal), I would like to...

~attend a film festival
~spend an entire day lingerie shopping
~do the dressing room thing (if you want to know...and you probably don't, trust me...ask)
~learn to tango
~make a feature
~become closer to my parents
~learn to play poker
~don't worry so much
~have two guys fight over me (stupid, I know, but it's my silly ego-boosting one)
~make a lasting impression in the film industry
~see the Magnetic Fields live
~win Sloan's heart back
~fall asleep in my boyfriend's arms in front of a fire
~drink gin at the Bowery and/or Elaine's
~meet Stephin Merritt
~own a record player and an impressive collection of vinyl
~find a bikini which makes me look hotter than the average hot girl ::smiles coyly::
~see The Princess Bride (because EVERYONE talks about it and I don't get all the jokes)
~be in a movie...even as an extra
~crowdsurf
~go to an exclusive party and/or afterparty
~attend an awards show
~go to Stratford, ON (my childhood Shakespeare festival vacation stop) with a bunch of friends
~be at peace with who I am
~sew the buttons back on to my coat(s)
~take a year off school or work to travel the world
~spend a considerable about of time in France, Italy, Spain and/or India
~become more gusty when it comes to men
~shop with my mother in New York City
~go up to a guy I like/think is hot, kiss him, and walk away without saying anything
~intern at a film or TV company
~see every single one of Hitchcock's movies
~receive roses
~fly first-class somewhere
~visit a real rainforest (the one in Seattle doesn't count)
~be as hot as the woman who played the mom in Goodbye Lenin!
~relearn Swedish
~meet one of the living Beatles
~spend some time working with children (au pair, tutor, children's television, etc.)
~have a long conversation with Andrew Sarris (one of my profs, one of the most respected film critics in history, and an extremely interesting man)
~use film to challenge the way people think

Shit. That's a hell of a lot of goals. Oh well...I have time, right? ::smiles::

there are certain things i have to remember to live by:

universal truth #1: boys are stupid.
rule #4: never do anything drunk you wouldn't do sober.

the past 24 hours have made these two things entirely too clear.

ok, so i'm not making resolutions for the whole year, because i'm a firm believer in letting the proverbial chips fall where they may, but i'm going to try to keep to my goal of losing 10 pounds by the end of february and/or getting myself down to a size 5/6 if i can. this i will accomplish by controlling what i eat and restricting my deathly love of carbohydrates in any form, which hopefully will lead to some longer-term benefits in terms of my eating habits. oh, and "the good life" will be my anthem, of course. i need to start getting out more. ;)

went to caro's house last night and spent midnight with her and missy. it was so nice seeing them both again. we watched the ball drop (for missy's sake...neither carolyn or i really had any interest, but we went along with it) and then watched all about eve until around 215. damn, that was a good movie. sometimes i think that all of the classics outweigh anything that the film industry can produce now. bette davis is amazing.

but yeah, for the first time in like 5 years i've spent new year's eve NOT at home. it was such a welcome change. i love my parents and all, but it is nice to be away from them sometimes. i guess i just didn't want to sit around watching movies again, even though that's what i ended up doing. but at least i was out of the house..

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