I always fall for the boys who break me.

Being bedridden can be fun.

Not so much, though, when you have a terrible fever.

My boss sent me on a run on Monday. The morning had been beautiful and I decided to dress for summer, so I was wearing a cute little skirt, a tank top, and strappy sandals. However, when I got to 37th street, I was hit with a surprise rainshower. And I had nothing with which to protect me. I was forced to wander around midtown, for around 10 blocks, in the rain.

So it's no surprise that the next morning, I felt like shit.

I spent 3/4 of Tuesday and all of yesterday in a state of delirium. I called out of work yesterday and today and played episodes of Sex and the City and Hindi movies in the background while I drifted in and out of fever-induced sleep. Somehow when I'm sick I can't fall asleep in complete silence. I need something playing on TV.

I would, however, like to thank a couple of people:
--Jess, for bringing me water and soup and returning my rented DVDs on Tuesday night even though she was on her way out on a date.
--Paulash, for calling/IMing every few hours to check up on me and make sure that I'm not dead.
--My mommy and daddy for putting up with me calling at 6pm, 8pm, and 10pm with "I feel so yuckyyyyyyy..."
--My TV (yes, it is a person) and Kim's Video for providing me with wonderful background noise to fall asleep to. [On a side note: I always thought that in order to work at Kim's you needed to have a bad attitude, but today I had a conversation with the guy who was checking me out about how awesome SATC is! And then the girl who handed me the DVDs as I was walking out actually SMILED at me. WHOA. What is happening to the universe?!]

Now. Back to bed until later this evening. But I'm feeling a LOT better now and (hopefully) ready for a weekend of debauchery with reeya. I shouldn't say that though. Don't want to jinx things any more than I already have... ;)

Last night and today totally made up for the hours between 5 and 9 yesterday!

Last Night:
As I was brooding about not having anyone to hang out with on my birthday, I got a call from my sister-in-law Priya, who was heading into the city from Providence (where she had spent the day meeting a client). She and I decided to meet up in the village for dinner and my first legal alcoholic beverage. We went to this cute little Italian restaurant on Macdougal. The ONLY bad part about the whole deal was when I ordered the drink, the waiter didn't card me. Dammit.

When I got back, I met up with the ever-lovely J.Chan who took me to 1020 and bought me a beer. I didn't get carded there, either. Dammit.

The Columbia scene was dead, but in a way it was good because we had the whole back area of 1020 to ourselves and we spent a long time just chatting. Our conversations are always so awesome. We went to Roti Roll afterwards and the door dividing the restaurant and the gay bar next door was open. It was karaoke night. We listened to a couple of people perform really bad renditions of "Dancin' in the Streets" and "Somewhere Over The Rainbow." We decided that next time, we're going to get obliterated and go and perform and pretend to be lovers. Yes. Hehehe.

Today:
Met up with Payal and Paulash in the city for lunch and then a trip to the Museum of Natural History. It was sooo much fun. I had never been before and pretty much dragged both of them there with me. What can I say, I <3 MUSEUMS. Yes, I'm a dork. There are a ton of ridiculous pictures that absolutely need to be posted soon. (Hint, hint, Bandy.)

Today was actually my first time meeting Payal; she's really cool and absolutely hilarious. And Paulash definitely asked the waiter at the restaurant to card me -- even though I didn't order any alcohol -- since I didn't get carded at all last night. Aww.

The past 30 hours have been fantastic. Things were looking down for a while but I think my 21st was celebrated in a fabulous manner. I didn't get drunk, but whatever. I have plenty more weekends this summer to do so.

I CANNOT stop listening to The Colour and the Shape by the Foo Fighters. I also have a lot of stuff to write on concerning music that I've been listening to recently, but I'll save it for next time, when I'm not sniffling (from spending a day in weather BELOW 90 degrees! I know!) and I don't have a ridiculously messy room.

So, as the story comes to an end, I've been living a lie. A beautiful, dreamlike, absolutely wonderful lie. A lie that made my head spin and my toes curl and my entire being float off the ground.

But a lie nonetheless.

I won't say WHO pressured me into posting these *cough* Mr. Cool Rider *cough* but they've been sitting in my computer for a month or so. But since a bunch of people have been posting anonymous letters, I figured I might as well join them. There are only five of them -- that's all I had time to write before my life exploded -- and they're a bit outdated -- I may write more soon. But for now...

( ...here they are )

There's other stuff that's happened today too, and I'm a little overwhelmed. But, in the meantime, keep guessing on my previous post. I'm not unscreening the comments until the majority of people on my friends list reply (which means most of you have yet to do it! Hehehe.)

Wow. This weekend was unbelievably crazy.

But now I have to deal with getting a new DP for my shoot.

I just wish everything had fallen into place a long time ago and I didn't have to deal with all of this. Maybe this is a sign telling me that making this film was a bad idea.

I shouldn't be thinking like that. I just have to get through this final project and then the semester will be over. And the fun and games in the city over the summer will begin...after 2 lovely weeks at home, for which I cannot wait. And underneath all my stressing out, somehow I have a feeling that things will all work. I just hope I get access to a 24p camera. If I have to shoot on those piece of shit cameras that the Film Division "lets" the undergrads use, so help me I will be ANGRY.

( Entirely unimportant list of things I have to do today. )

It almost doesn't feel like things should be ending. Somehow it still feels like January or February.

But maybe that's because it's gross outside, and my room is freezing.

Absolutely amazing weekend.

Unfortunately, that makes it harder to get back to work.

But on the upside, tonight I:
-- Resumed gym activity.
-- Found a decent Indian restaurant right by Columbia. (It only took...what...3 years?)
-- Am very, very content. :)

What I Learned (or rather, Remembered) Today:

When you're starting to feel horrible about stuff happening to you, try and look at it from another perspective, be it an objective one or someone else's. I realized this evening (with the assistance of certain other people) that I complain WAY too much, yet I have so much stuff going for me it's ridiculous. Things are never perfect -- if they were, that would take the fun and spontaneity and excitement out of life. I have so much to look forward to. I have a great job, I'm getting an incredible education, I have AMAZING housing to look forward to next year, I have a fantastic circle of friends (both in real life and on LJ), I have a close-knit and wonderfully crazy family.

And, most importantly, I'm healthy, I have food to eat every day, and I have a roof over my head.

I have a tendency to get too wrapped up in the little things and miss the big picture entirely. I am so lucky to be where I am right now, to know the people I know, and to be having the experiences that shape my day-to-day existence. Things are GREAT for me right now -- my biggest problems are miniscule at this point, in comparison to what I could be going through. And I'm knocking on wood that I'll be fortunate enough to have them this way for a while.

Conversation with Reeya [mehnaz].

Beagle1795: what are you up to now?
Starseed1241: i just got back
Starseed1241: i have to take a shower and do some reading.
Beagle1795: nice
Beagle1795: yeah i need to shower too
Starseed1241: and then i get some JAZZ MUSICIAN ASS tonight.
Starseed1241: hahahaha
Beagle1795: HAHAHA
Beagle1795: good call
Beagle1795: take advantage of the fact that he appears to have fallen in love with you at first sight...bollywood style
Beagle1795: and is now sort of stalking you...bollywood style (ie in a non threatening but hilariously weird way)
Starseed1241: hahahahaha
Starseed1241: oh my god...
Starseed1241: my life is turning into a b'wood movie!!
Beagle1795: HAHA
Beagle1795: AWESOME!
Starseed1241: dance marathon was just one extended musical number!
Beagle1795: it was like all the musical numbers combined into one
Starseed1241: hahahahaha
Beagle1795: :D
Starseed1241: wow.
Starseed1241: this is a huge revelation.
Starseed1241: now i'm wondering when my parents are going to force me to marry someone else.
Beagle1795: HAHAHA
Starseed1241: WAIT. i'm ALREADY married...to paulash [pbandy34]!!!!!
Beagle1795: hehehehe
Beagle1795: well then, what'll happen is your true love will come and try to infiltrate
Beagle1795: and convince everyone (paulash included) that you belong with him
Starseed1241: hahahahahaha
Beagle1795: through any means possible
Beagle1795: a la DDLJ
Starseed1241: OR he could end up being crazy obssessed stalker a la srk in darr.
Beagle1795: ah yes
Beagle1795: there's the other extreme
Beagle1795: with pictures of you all over his wall
Beagle1795: that he talks to
Beagle1795: when he's not talking to his dead mother on the phone
Starseed1241: hahahaha
Beagle1795: i think i'd prefer the ddlj scenario, myself...
Beagle1795: though it would be hilarious to see paulash beat the crap out of a stalker
Beagle1795: like sunny deol
Starseed1241: HAHAHA
Beagle1795: i'd pay to see that :D
Starseed1241: rise from the dead
Beagle1795: HAHAHA